Wednesday, August 27, 2008

i am happy

i am happy.

u dont have to read the next line if u dont want to.. really.

this entry is a crap. i repeat, A CRAP. don't say that i didn't warn u.

hmph. for u, at least. but not for me.

i just need to let this out, somehow, u know what i mean?

i need to let this go.


that is what i'm feeling.

im in my own space, doing my own real stuff, eat and sleep and pray, study..watching movies. but, for one thing, i felt like im disconnected from people.REAL people i mean. not here, virtually.

it's not that i'm scared or anything.. i have no idea.

it's a comfort, really.

keeping myself safe and sound here, closed and confined.

i don't get out much. i don't play, i don't stroll i used to.

i go to the mall, yes. but just to get my food stuff, that's all.

i go to the cafe/koop, yes. but to grab a slurpie and go.

i touch my phone, yes. but just to set the alarm (morning call) and left messages unreplied.

that's pretty much of me this time.

but i'm happy.

i do all my schoolwork during the day.

i watch house or grey's anatomy or one litre of tears(japanase movie), at night.

at midnight, i watch the movies that i downloaded.

and for my bedtime, i read the books till i fell asleep.

and yet, i am happy.

if happy means that i love my life and i feel hatred towards nobody currently, then yes, i am happy.

i suppose i would have been happier if im not doing all these 'things' of mine alone.

i'm the eldest of three, did u know that?

sometimes, i wish i have a sister.maybe my life won't turn out to be this dull.

now, there there.

the point is : trying to make my life sounds better is what i'm currently doing. oh gosh, crap crap.

p/s : for you who read this entry THIS far, thank you for listening. :)


Afiq said...

happy.. yah.. happy go lucky ahaks.

kehidupan perlu diteruskan.

Anonymous said...


AlexAlabasta said...

Life goes on, but its good ur happy.
Me too, an eldest and the ony son of three, I guess thats why Im a bit flamboyant.

But hey, dont just get stuck in ur room, ur still young. Life in uni is still a long way to go. Live it the fullest, join Titian Budi, Rakan Muda or whatsoever programs in the uni to meet new ppl, possible love partner (hehe~) and more importantly, contribute ur precious life to the society... At the end of the day, U will feel "Yeah, I achieved something here~"

I walk alone sometimes to the interview and stuff cos if my friends aint goin, it doesnt mean I have to let my chance flies by~ You do that too, sister! And kick some butts along the way! Haha~

Ps- Join foster family program, ull get one sister...hehe...

alicia keys said...

afiq-yeah..u r right..

sis izzah-happy meal..hehe

alexalabasta-thanz..for ur long advice..i am glad to hear it..