November Rain by Gun N Roses

Esok hari last SPM 2019. Paper Prinsip Akaun.
22/11/2019 hari last persekolahan. and I am still here. writing this at home. (Is this place really called a home?-kuarters guru B-2-2 MRSM SAS)
I always wonder what home means me to? Home is suppose to be a safe haven and a comfort zone. A place to build memories with beloved ones. Or it is only a phrase because I heard somewhere home is where the heart is. I dont know bout you. But sometimes I feel that I am very far from home.

Oh gosh. I miss writing here. How I wish I can pour all my thought, memories and everything here. But time is gold. I cant write anywhere anytime like I used to before. Time is limited. Time will heal. Time is everything. But wait. Why blame time. I should only blame myself for not putting any effort to write. I guess I should write more often, but the thing is... I only froze in front of the laptop. I blinked. Then I switch off the laptop. Today, I have the courage to write.

35 more days to 2020. When I reflect back all the things I did this year. I feel honored. I am 30 this year. I've loved and I've lost. I've had mine and you've had yours.
After everything I've been through, despite what other people might have talked about me behind my back. I dont really care actually, well yeah sometimes I might want to know what other people said bout me, but I cant really control what people gonna talk about me. So, I choose not to know.
They said ''ignorance is a bliss'' - it do well to me sometimes.

I need to focus more on growing myself. For example, I will step up my skincare routine, I will take care my body more often, do things that makes me happy, do more savings for travel etc. I care for people that I loved. For people who always been there for me, ups and downs. Because I have this in my mind-  You should keep and care for those who can see your sadness behind your smile.

THANK YOU 2018. You have been wonderful to me. Yes, not all wonderful, honestly. But I dont want to think too much on the negative and horror part. Only Allah can judge me. Because He is the one who write the story for me and I will continuously pray that I am always under his Guidance and Blessing to the right path for me. InsyaAllah